Zahraa - day 20 video

After ber'farewell' lunch bersama2 collague tadi, memang aku tak buat keja lansung. Hari ini adalah hari meng'transfer' semua personal file aku ke pendrive...hehe. This will be my final week with GEWD. Sayonara everyone who stay.... half of us will be leaving less than 120hrs from now!

Sungguh banyak reta aku yang hendak di'transfer'...and when it comes to video file, this is one of the video yang aku rasa very memorable for the last 14 months...rasa macam cepat sgt masa berlalu.Skrang ni kalau mandi kadang2 tu dia yang mandikan kita skali...and of course everyday the shower is hers!

23rd weeks...

Rasa mcm skejap sgt preggy kali ni...its almost 6 months!!! And she is very...very active compared to Zahraa. Kalo kakak Zahraa pon after deliver rancak tak hengat, baby ni kuar esk x tau laa...hahaa. Hopefully everything will be as easy as delivered my precious Zahraa! Senang besalin, senang jaga...x banyak ragam! Kul 8-9 mlm dah tdo... (that's why Zahraa cepat dapat adik! hahaa)

As per schedule, baby supposedly now already 11 inchs long and the weights just over a pound (besar buah mempelam daa...) and as my previous pregnency, sometimes I can see her squirm underneath my clothes. Cuma 2nd pregnency ni bezanya I've being more sensitive compared to the 1st one sebab dah tahu mcm mana rasa baby movement. So, by four months dlu dah rasa movement dia...macam Zahraa dlu 5 bln baru rasa dia gerak...awal2 macam tak sure. Rasa mcm butterfly in my stomach jaaa...hehe.

Suprisingly, baby ni sgt rancak begerak (mcm meloncat2 dlm perut ni) bila time kakak dia cium dia dari luar...mcm dah kenal jaa ngan kakak dia even x pernah jumpa lagi... Memang laa rasa amat sunyi n mcm sumthing missing bila my baby boo gi offshore mcm skarang. Tapi disebabkan keletah anak dara yang ada kat umah ni, plus anak dara dlm peyot ni, tak laa sunyi sgt even letih ya'amat melayan karenah dia...Cuma privilage yang paling penting tak dapat time hubby tak ada kat umah utk 2-3 minggu nih yelah kena bgn buat susu...uwaaaaaa.....x beshnya!!!

Bila dah masuk 2nd trimester macam ni aku suka sgt sebab dah tak alah, tak malas macam 1st trimester dulu. Mood pon dah tak swing mcm dlu...kalo masa 1st trimester dlu mcm org period jaa hari2. Skarang ni rasa cam nak pegnent throughout the year...haha. Kenapa ya?

1) Privilage treatment dari semua orang especially
Dari my baby boo - urutan kaki most of da nite. pastu kalo nak makan roti canai tgh2 malam pon ada sanggup pi beli. Nak makan apa suma sanggup carikan. Even buah anggur pon leh dapat kul 1 pagi. Kalo tak pregnant...? hmm..tak try request lg. (Lepas ni I try ye Bie..haha).
Dari mak mentua - kalo dia masak apa2 yang besh, musti ingat kat mnantu mak buyung nih.
Dari ibu sniri - tiap kali adik blk kg, siap tapau lauk kegemaranku...kalo kitorang blk mmg kompom lah jugak tapau. So, sampai kl aku x yah dah masak...kekekek.

2) Segala amal ibadah ibu mengandung ni dapat double marks...contohnya, kalo laki blk kita hidangkan air upon request dia, dapat payung perak kat syurga nanti. Kalo not upon his request, (voluntary buat air) dapat payung emas...ni dapat dari one of the hadis. Tak ingatlah pulak hadis apa...nanti kalo jumpa blk will share ngan korang.

3) Dikira mati syahid kalau meninggal sewaktu bersalin

4) Segala ketidakselesaan, kesabaran sewaktu mengandung semua ada ganjarannya...so, orang perempuan ni memang banyak privilages Allah bagi waktu mengandung. Buat amalan sket dpt pahala.

Bagi kenkawan yang baru nak membina masjid or tengah berusaha utk membuntingkan wife or menambahkan org ke 3 dlm family, planning nak anak cepat tapi masih tak berhasil, sabar byk2 ye. Aku pon pernah melalui zaman2 tu dlu...
Few months after kawin tak preggy lg tp org lain yg kawin kemudian preggy dlu. Semua tu ada hikmah....maybe it's time for homeymoon dulu. Ada hikmah atas apa yang berlaku. Enjoy your time with your spouse...besides get the scientific information+petua2 dari experiences ones..insyallah.

My first Niece - Marha Humairah Muadzir

Inilah cucu pompuan ke2 Hj Aziz & Hjh Khadijah. Born in the same day as Haza's daughter - Hana Humairah. Dah laa branak sama hari...nama pon dah nk dekat2. Korang ni pakat ker? I think now is the Humairah's season sbb masa Zahraa dlu pon I've found most of the baby's name sama...In fact after a few months of delivery Zahraa a fren of mine letak nama anak dia Damia Zahra. (Si Tun..anak ko laa tu !) Suprisingly, last monday when I went for a monthly check up kat HUKMSC. There's a toodler, same age as my beautiful Zahraa also named Damia Zahra. Kelakar kan? dah laa beza few weeks jer dari Zahraa...nama pon dekat2. But for me, still 'Rania' will be the best name for my daughter/s....

So Azet n Alin, Congratulations on your newborn!!! Nanti baby shower a.k.a doa selamat a.k.a cukur jambul buatlah kat kl...

p/s: Afza & Fendy, lepas ni Amsyar tpaksa jd bapak pi pasar time main masak2 sbb kupu2 dia suma pompuan. So, who's next turn to produce kwn Amsyar? Ajim? hahaa...

Wajah ceria seorang bapak!

She's a gurl!!!

Well, people says that a picture worth a thousand words ..well guys (& gents), i've uploaded a picture now you all make a thousand words lah ..since i always struggling even to write a 50 words long essay, 1000 words is like climbing mount everest or running 100m in less than 30sec (sorry typo) less than 10sec

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ok, bout the picture ..you can see the labia there (i'm pointing to it, if you cannot see then nujum pak belalang said you going to see your maker very soon lah) ..so, it's A GIRL ♂ ..hehehe ..Zahraa dapat adik pompuan, tak rugi barang2 yg ibu dia beli selama ni ..boleh recons & guna balik! ..errr dah thousand words ke blom ni?

Let's share a wonderful story....

A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them.

She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."

"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.

"No", she replied. "He's out." "Then we cannot come in", they replied.

In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.

"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"

The woman went out and invited the men in.....

"We do not go into a House together," they replied.

"Why is that?" she asked.

One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed.

"How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth.. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"

His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"

Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!" "Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.

"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."

The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success:

"I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"

The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"

It's very intersting...and what did I learn from this story are...

-When there is pain, you must have a peace and mercy.

-When there is self-doubting, you must renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.

-When there is tiredness, or exhaustion, you must have an understanding, patience, and renewed strength.

-When there is fear, you must have a love, and courage in you..

Recovery....

Just like haven bila blk kg....terasa relief sgt bila berada dikalangan orang2 tersayang waktu2 canggini. I can spend all my time dgn hubby, ibu, abah n of course zahraa. I am so dimotivated last friday...rasa mcm this is the end of my career.End of my world...

Bila jadik camni mula laa rasa nak buat macam2....rasa nak further study pon ada...nak duduk umah jadik hausewife sambil buat part time business pon ada...tapi kalo further study early next year lah baru boleh apply...hmmm.

Tapi, bila pikir2 balik rasanya apa yang jadik ni ada hikmah disebaliknya. Maybe this is the right time for me to look after Zahraa and the newborn on July nanti. Zahraa pon skarang ni sangat lasak and need full attention from me. Biasa la anak kalo tinggal ngan maid. Bukan derang nak educate sangat. Bagi makan, tido n main skejap sudah....At least bila ada kat umah nanti Zahraa can learn more from me. Beliau pon sangat minat dengan buku..so, sambil melayan karenah dia, boleh masakkan utk dia, ajar dia baca....I will try to be a good housewife & a mother. Huhuhu...boleh ke?

Im so lucky compared to others...at least I've got husband that 100% support on me. At least he's around. He gets easier when life gets hard....takpelah Bie,duduk umah ada allowance lebey ckit kot? kekeke......

And to those my friends who are supporting me, thousand of thanks to all of you...macam ckp syikin...keja dari umah tak payah lilit2 tudung kan...kekekee. Thanks fren! Love u oll....

Bad Day, Bad News....

All the rumours seems to be truth. Buat julung-julung kalinya TL, our VP panggil aku personally utk sampaikan berita nih....

After what had happend to our company, and as per recent news baru-baru ni yang keluar dlm Business Times, our company telah mengakibatkan our parent company, SF which is listed in main board in Germany patah kaki. As a result, our office @ S'pore kena shut down last week and ours @ KL pon terkena tempiasnya. All of us have to take VSS as our last options. Means, after Feb'09 aku akan jadik fulltime hauswife aka personal accountant Mr.Muadzam bin Aziz....heheh. Best kan? Orang lain songlap duit bejuta2....perut moncit telan duit haram, kitorang yang terkontang-kanting kat opis ni terpaksa masuk angin kluar asap.

Aku sgt jiwang...wakakakaaa

Dlm byk2 lagu, lagu ni buat hati aku terpaut sesangat.... melody dia buat aku melayang2 plus the lyrics is soooo beautiful especially bila hubby gi outstation mcm skarang nih. Mcm tak saba jaa tunggu dia blk bila nyanyi lagu ni snsorang...kekeke. Jiwang siot!!!......ceh!
Bila dngr lagu ni rasa mcm zaman2 becinta dlu lak rasanya. Eh..but skang pon still bechenta what...kekekee. Apa2 pon I feel in cloud 9 lah bila dngr lagu nih...kome nak kutuk, kutuk lah...hahaa. Yg penting aku amat bahagia n teruja ngan lagu nih skarang!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=772Zkx3rSaE

Jason Mraz ft Colbie- Lucky
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you,

I will I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Lalalalaaaa....mari bercoti

Kita posing dlu....(walaupon dlm mulot ada makanan...hehe)

Disebabkan arini takde mood nak buat keja, so jom kita layan gamba aktiviti last 2 wkend besama budak kecik yg makin ligat kat bawah ni....

Sambil ibu abah mkn, kita gi tour lah kat meja lain...

Hmm...kalo nak tau itulah antara aktiviti dia time kitorang breakfast kat lobby hotel...Dia siap gi bekenalan ngan mamat cashier kat kedai sebelah tu lagi....eeeiii anak dara aku nih. Kecik2 dah pandai yer....hmm besar sok jgn ramah sgt udah ler.

Actually kitorang bawak Zahraa ni gi jalan2 ke Genting last 2 weeks. Plannya nak ke Cameron...dah siap booking hotel sume dah. Ibu kan vacation club member...so ingatkan nak menghabiskan saki baki hotel free kat sana laa. Tp tetiba lak abah Zahraa tpaksa gi opis ari sabtu tu, abah pon tukar laa plan ke Genting sebab takut ibu merajuk....kekeke. Memula tu cuak jugak sebab takut x de hotel sbb x booking in advance. Tapi nasib baik still ada available room for walk in guest petang tu...huhuu.

After chk in, ingatkan nak bagi Zahraa nap skejap kat bilik. Tapi dia punya laa exited, lepas minum susu cepat2 bangun dari katil. Turun katil n sarung kasut abah dia....haih...x sabar rupanya nak gi main baby ibu nih. Baby ker? hahaa...kakak lah!

So, after maghrib, kitorang pon turun ke indoor walaupon tau Zahraa dah ngantuk...maklomlah, tadi bgn kul 3pm trus tak tido sampai Genting. So, 8.30pm mmg dah time dia tido laa...tp abah ckp x pe laa skali skala bg dia tido lambat sikit....Sebelum bg dia main, kitorang dinner dlu kat Big Mac sebab baby dlm peyot ni dah menendang2 lapar...(actually ibu dia yg lapar...kekeke). Zahraa pon berjayalah menghabiskan dkt stengah fries tu...than barulah bawak dia main indoor.






Tapi disebabkan dah lewat, sempat bagi kakak Zahraa main merry-go-round jer....ibu n baby dalam perut ni dah penat sgt rasanya. The next day tu baru kitorang amek 1 day indoor...1st time in our life main indoor...kekeke. Kalo dlu gi Genting exited utk main outdoor jaa..bila dah ada anak ni, terpaksa laa melupakan hasrat di hati...huhuhu. Saba je laa kan? Mintak Zahraa n adik cepat2 besar...kita leh gi main outdoor sama-sama...yahoooooo.

Im sooo..stress!!!

Huh...tak tau laa knapa rasa camni. Rasa cam tak besh jaa....ngan office situation yg tak brapa memberangsangkan. Maybe pasal x dpt bonus...which is out of my expectation...sbb kan nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga. Pasal org ats yg amek duit, org bawah suffered sampai skarang.
2nd, auditor2 PWC germany tu maybe extend lg 1 wk kat opis nih...sigh! Apa lagi laa bala nk menimpa lepas nih...

Than, nak apply keja tempat lain pon takkan orang nak accept mak buyung yang perut makin membesar mcm aku nih.....Of course aku kna tunggu after deliver baru worth for interview.
To stay here for another few years...oh no! I dun't think so. I don't have market value over here. The system is too worst! If not because of the money, dah lama aku cabut. Motivation aku kat sini ialah duit jer...so bila company dah jadi canggini, suma motivation utk kerja hilang...gone with the wind! Sememangnya derang tak potong gaji la...not up to that circumstances... Tapi the satisfaction is not here...my job satisfaction already gone sejak kawin...sebab join co ni masa baru kawin....At that moment I think it is the most suitable place for me...boleh balik on time, ada masa utk hubby, beside gaji yang much2 more better dari company lama...

But now..I am really dimotivated! Feels like there is no one appriciate my job over here, nobody wants to hear my point of view...nobody want to share...
My heart, my soul is empty...
Balik umah pon x de sapa nak sembang....last2 sembang bedua ngan Zahraa je laa....sib baik laa dia skarang pon dah pandai nak besembang even tak tahu apa yang ibu dia get through now...and at least she's listening with the reaction 'Aaa?'...n after that she will repeating apa yang ibu dia cakap...hmm. Boleh laa....