Gambar passport

Smlam kitorang gi tangkap gamba utk buat passport cik kak Zahraa...ni lah antara gamba2 yang tak jadi...hahaa. punya lah susah nak suruh dia duduk tegak. Pusing kiri, pusing kanan, goyang kaki, buat muka notty mcm kat bwh ni....Tgk bawah....(mcm xpernah tgk kaki sniri)

And at last.....Terpaksa laa accept gamba bahu senget ni sebab dia dah tak mo duduk atas krusi tu...nk gi tgk fish kat luar katanya....hmmm...bulih laa gamba ni ponnnn....

The light is on its way...

My life is getting busy those couple of days...as busy as bee. Alhamdulillah, apa yang direncanakan kami husband & wife since last year mula menampakkan hasilnya. Cuma this good news tak dapat nak bgtau kat hubbyku lagi sebab dah 2 hari tak dapat communicate!uwaaaa.....sedeynya.....

Amazingly, lepas faced benda2 yang tak diingini for the past few months Allah have a better plan for me. After few times berulang alik ke putrajaya and meeting with DPMM people, alhamdulillah derang interested dgn produk tepung hasil keluaran kami. Sebelum ni punya lah susah nak dapatkan lubang untuk commercializedkan secret recepie ni. Rupa2nya dalam Malaysia ni sume nak kena ada orang dalam yek... birokrasi sungguh. No wonder laa orang2 yang kaya makin kaya...yang miskin makin melarat! 'Money makes money'. If you wanna have something, you have to be something...baru orang nampak...Sigh!

But, I dun bother it anymore now! It's time for me to make a move...be aggrasive! Yang penting, hopefully lepas submit Halal Certificate application on this 23rd, within a few months (kalau takda aral) boleh dah commercialized product kami...Amazingly, the first quotation had been requested from DPMM just now lepas aku adakan sesi food testing dengan presiden derang. Alhamdulillah, 100kg quotation without our own packaging kena submit kat derang sebab derang nak labelkan product kami under their own brand. As a beginner, tak kesah laa kan asal ada badan nak tolong dapatkan HALAL Certificate + commercializedkan product kami. Tapi untuk bawak product ni ke Milan dgn DPMM & Hub Halal this June kitorang still takda representatif...(sebab aku dah due nak besalin...uwaaaa-kalo tak leh menggediks!) cost 50%will sponsered by DPMM. So, anyone interseted? pvt me, ok...hahaa

Emm..on plan untuk textile & fabrics business still on. The web insyallah will be ready on this April (sbb barang tak sampai lg-sesapa nak put order boleh, due on 24th Mac ye kwn2). So, if anyone interested on shiffon, silk, telekung & other textile, do let me know. Kalau ada sesapa nak kawin tgh thn or ujung thn pon leh booking siap2 ngan aku. Nak franch lace, or shiffon or any type of fabrics yang korang nak...? Order saja....

A life as a housewife...

Memang sronok ddk umah melayan karenah si kecil yg bakal jadi kakak ni...tetiap hari ada jer idea dia buat aksi baru. Tapi part yang pilu rasa hati bila tetiap pg bukak jaa mata trus tanya abah dia...tgk helmet, jaket, moto,keta...suma sebut abah. (Bie,I know u miss this part so much!)Tapi bila naik keta kecik ibu dia tak pulak sibuk nak ingat abah...hehe. siap babai lg Cik Habsah dia.

Hmm..becakap pasal maid, semenjak 2 menjak aku tak bekerja nih, datang pagi pon dkt 8.30-9.00am. Tensi laa jugak psal petang dlm kul 5.30 dia dah boleh blk...kalo throughout the wk ni dia tak dtg on time, mmg aku nak sound laa...nak tunggu hubbyku blk jawabnya lg 2 minggu laa aku makan ati tgk dia dtg lmbat. Nak terminate sok aku dh besalin ssh pulak nak carik orang...

So far tgk Zahraa amat suka bila ibu dia tak keja (even most ofthe time ibu dia ngadap laptop buat keja). Tapi at least dapat ajar dia baca buku, menari & main sama2... dia pon makin bijak n faham apa org ckp. Kira dah boleh harap laa kalo nak suruh ambik remote ke, masukkan baju kotor dlm bakul ke...and the best part is masa Alifah dtg lepak kat umah aritu, dia amek tudung Auntie Pah dia yg diletak atas sofa n masukkan kat dlm bakul bj kotor dia...kitorang tak larat nak gelak time tu...Kalo hp bunyi lak dia la org yang paling kelam kabut carik hp utk bg kat ibu dia...haha. At least bila kna tinggal ngan laki lama2 mcm ni ada gak laa penghibur hati...but the loneliness are still there! I can't deny it!

Skang ni aku leh imagine laa mcm mana ibu tunggal secrifice jaga anak2 bila laki xde. Mentally mustbe very strong especially bila berbadan dua macam ni...ibu abah bukan tak ajak aku balik lepak kat Ipoh. Tapi bila dah ada umah sniri,anak sniri...the comfort is here. Plus kat sini byk aktiviti n keja yg nak disettlekan...(keja apa laa tu kan?kekee...) Dan yg penting, bila hubbyku balik aku dah ada kat sini...lagi cepat leh gi pickup kat KLIA, lg cepat leh jumpa.....ahaks...

Hmm..lg 1 bad news....digi cam ku rosak...hwaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Sume kakak Zahraa laa yg empunya angkara! Bila laa nk siap repair nih :(

Zahraa - day 20 video

After ber'farewell' lunch bersama2 collague tadi, memang aku tak buat keja lansung. Hari ini adalah hari meng'transfer' semua personal file aku ke pendrive...hehe. This will be my final week with GEWD. Sayonara everyone who stay.... half of us will be leaving less than 120hrs from now!

Sungguh banyak reta aku yang hendak di'transfer'...and when it comes to video file, this is one of the video yang aku rasa very memorable for the last 14 months...rasa macam cepat sgt masa berlalu.Skrang ni kalau mandi kadang2 tu dia yang mandikan kita skali...and of course everyday the shower is hers!

23rd weeks...

Rasa mcm skejap sgt preggy kali ni...its almost 6 months!!! And she is very...very active compared to Zahraa. Kalo kakak Zahraa pon after deliver rancak tak hengat, baby ni kuar esk x tau laa...hahaa. Hopefully everything will be as easy as delivered my precious Zahraa! Senang besalin, senang jaga...x banyak ragam! Kul 8-9 mlm dah tdo... (that's why Zahraa cepat dapat adik! hahaa)

As per schedule, baby supposedly now already 11 inchs long and the weights just over a pound (besar buah mempelam daa...) and as my previous pregnency, sometimes I can see her squirm underneath my clothes. Cuma 2nd pregnency ni bezanya I've being more sensitive compared to the 1st one sebab dah tahu mcm mana rasa baby movement. So, by four months dlu dah rasa movement dia...macam Zahraa dlu 5 bln baru rasa dia gerak...awal2 macam tak sure. Rasa mcm butterfly in my stomach jaaa...hehe.

Suprisingly, baby ni sgt rancak begerak (mcm meloncat2 dlm perut ni) bila time kakak dia cium dia dari luar...mcm dah kenal jaa ngan kakak dia even x pernah jumpa lagi... Memang laa rasa amat sunyi n mcm sumthing missing bila my baby boo gi offshore mcm skarang. Tapi disebabkan keletah anak dara yang ada kat umah ni, plus anak dara dlm peyot ni, tak laa sunyi sgt even letih ya'amat melayan karenah dia...Cuma privilage yang paling penting tak dapat time hubby tak ada kat umah utk 2-3 minggu nih yelah kena bgn buat susu...uwaaaaaa.....x beshnya!!!

Bila dah masuk 2nd trimester macam ni aku suka sgt sebab dah tak alah, tak malas macam 1st trimester dulu. Mood pon dah tak swing mcm dlu...kalo masa 1st trimester dlu mcm org period jaa hari2. Skarang ni rasa cam nak pegnent throughout the year...haha. Kenapa ya?

1) Privilage treatment dari semua orang especially
Dari my baby boo - urutan kaki most of da nite. pastu kalo nak makan roti canai tgh2 malam pon ada sanggup pi beli. Nak makan apa suma sanggup carikan. Even buah anggur pon leh dapat kul 1 pagi. Kalo tak pregnant...? hmm..tak try request lg. (Lepas ni I try ye Bie..haha).
Dari mak mentua - kalo dia masak apa2 yang besh, musti ingat kat mnantu mak buyung nih.
Dari ibu sniri - tiap kali adik blk kg, siap tapau lauk kegemaranku...kalo kitorang blk mmg kompom lah jugak tapau. So, sampai kl aku x yah dah masak...kekekek.

2) Segala amal ibadah ibu mengandung ni dapat double marks...contohnya, kalo laki blk kita hidangkan air upon request dia, dapat payung perak kat syurga nanti. Kalo not upon his request, (voluntary buat air) dapat payung emas...ni dapat dari one of the hadis. Tak ingatlah pulak hadis apa...nanti kalo jumpa blk will share ngan korang.

3) Dikira mati syahid kalau meninggal sewaktu bersalin

4) Segala ketidakselesaan, kesabaran sewaktu mengandung semua ada ganjarannya...so, orang perempuan ni memang banyak privilages Allah bagi waktu mengandung. Buat amalan sket dpt pahala.

Bagi kenkawan yang baru nak membina masjid or tengah berusaha utk membuntingkan wife or menambahkan org ke 3 dlm family, planning nak anak cepat tapi masih tak berhasil, sabar byk2 ye. Aku pon pernah melalui zaman2 tu dlu...
Few months after kawin tak preggy lg tp org lain yg kawin kemudian preggy dlu. Semua tu ada hikmah....maybe it's time for homeymoon dulu. Ada hikmah atas apa yang berlaku. Enjoy your time with your spouse...besides get the scientific information+petua2 dari experiences ones..insyallah.

My first Niece - Marha Humairah Muadzir

Inilah cucu pompuan ke2 Hj Aziz & Hjh Khadijah. Born in the same day as Haza's daughter - Hana Humairah. Dah laa branak sama hari...nama pon dah nk dekat2. Korang ni pakat ker? I think now is the Humairah's season sbb masa Zahraa dlu pon I've found most of the baby's name sama...In fact after a few months of delivery Zahraa a fren of mine letak nama anak dia Damia Zahra. (Si Tun..anak ko laa tu !) Suprisingly, last monday when I went for a monthly check up kat HUKMSC. There's a toodler, same age as my beautiful Zahraa also named Damia Zahra. Kelakar kan? dah laa beza few weeks jer dari Zahraa...nama pon dekat2. But for me, still 'Rania' will be the best name for my daughter/s....

So Azet n Alin, Congratulations on your newborn!!! Nanti baby shower a.k.a doa selamat a.k.a cukur jambul buatlah kat kl...

p/s: Afza & Fendy, lepas ni Amsyar tpaksa jd bapak pi pasar time main masak2 sbb kupu2 dia suma pompuan. So, who's next turn to produce kwn Amsyar? Ajim? hahaa...

Wajah ceria seorang bapak!

She's a gurl!!!

Well, people says that a picture worth a thousand words ..well guys (& gents), i've uploaded a picture now you all make a thousand words lah ..since i always struggling even to write a 50 words long essay, 1000 words is like climbing mount everest or running 100m in less than 30sec (sorry typo) less than 10sec

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ok, bout the picture ..you can see the labia there (i'm pointing to it, if you cannot see then nujum pak belalang said you going to see your maker very soon lah) ..so, it's A GIRL ♂ ..hehehe ..Zahraa dapat adik pompuan, tak rugi barang2 yg ibu dia beli selama ni ..boleh recons & guna balik! ..errr dah thousand words ke blom ni?

Let's share a wonderful story....

A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them.

She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat."

"Is the man of the house home?", they asked.

"No", she replied. "He's out." "Then we cannot come in", they replied.

In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.

"Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"

The woman went out and invited the men in.....

"We do not go into a House together," they replied.

"Why is that?" she asked.

One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."

The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed.

"How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth.. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"

His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"

Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!" "Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife.

"Go out and invite Love to be our guest."

The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success:

"I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"

The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"

It's very intersting...and what did I learn from this story are...

-When there is pain, you must have a peace and mercy.

-When there is self-doubting, you must renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.

-When there is tiredness, or exhaustion, you must have an understanding, patience, and renewed strength.

-When there is fear, you must have a love, and courage in you..

Recovery....

Just like haven bila blk kg....terasa relief sgt bila berada dikalangan orang2 tersayang waktu2 canggini. I can spend all my time dgn hubby, ibu, abah n of course zahraa. I am so dimotivated last friday...rasa mcm this is the end of my career.End of my world...

Bila jadik camni mula laa rasa nak buat macam2....rasa nak further study pon ada...nak duduk umah jadik hausewife sambil buat part time business pon ada...tapi kalo further study early next year lah baru boleh apply...hmmm.

Tapi, bila pikir2 balik rasanya apa yang jadik ni ada hikmah disebaliknya. Maybe this is the right time for me to look after Zahraa and the newborn on July nanti. Zahraa pon skarang ni sangat lasak and need full attention from me. Biasa la anak kalo tinggal ngan maid. Bukan derang nak educate sangat. Bagi makan, tido n main skejap sudah....At least bila ada kat umah nanti Zahraa can learn more from me. Beliau pon sangat minat dengan buku..so, sambil melayan karenah dia, boleh masakkan utk dia, ajar dia baca....I will try to be a good housewife & a mother. Huhuhu...boleh ke?

Im so lucky compared to others...at least I've got husband that 100% support on me. At least he's around. He gets easier when life gets hard....takpelah Bie,duduk umah ada allowance lebey ckit kot? kekeke......

And to those my friends who are supporting me, thousand of thanks to all of you...macam ckp syikin...keja dari umah tak payah lilit2 tudung kan...kekekee. Thanks fren! Love u oll....

Bad Day, Bad News....

All the rumours seems to be truth. Buat julung-julung kalinya TL, our VP panggil aku personally utk sampaikan berita nih....

After what had happend to our company, and as per recent news baru-baru ni yang keluar dlm Business Times, our company telah mengakibatkan our parent company, SF which is listed in main board in Germany patah kaki. As a result, our office @ S'pore kena shut down last week and ours @ KL pon terkena tempiasnya. All of us have to take VSS as our last options. Means, after Feb'09 aku akan jadik fulltime hauswife aka personal accountant Mr.Muadzam bin Aziz....heheh. Best kan? Orang lain songlap duit bejuta2....perut moncit telan duit haram, kitorang yang terkontang-kanting kat opis ni terpaksa masuk angin kluar asap.